may.13.26

oh wowwww one full month since my last entry! functionally went off the grid for like 2 weeks but i finally have a working SIM card. i’m having the time of my life and i’m glad i quit my job! that being said i do really need more of a routine…… i feel a bit in the shadow of my lesbian lover and I gotta make a name for me myself and i. ya know? it’s also been very emotional hormonally because i stopped taking T and started taking birth control at the same time. this was a choice. my body is also super trying to kill me. i need to text my home people — im in a weird spot in the white queer communal living space

anyway over my last 3ish weeks in europe ive experienced

• a fully freegan diet!
• eating well every day <3 cooking on my own is difficult for me but it’s very communal out here
• a few days in a family tourist resort in the middle of nowhere. this was a strange experience
• a week in a graffiti place with no water and limited electricity. met some amazing people. the nonflushing toilet haunts me a bit
• 4 or 5 real ass mosh pits
• one rave in the street
• 15-20 individuals going “ohh ive heard all about you!” when i introduced myself
• upwards of 40 beers
• probably too many joints smoked
• one completed season of arrested development
• 2 rides where i was IN the dutch cargo bike
• 1 five-hour food not bombs shift
• a fucking ODYSSEY trying to access syringes and needles. apparently most europeans go to the doctor every time they need an hrt shot?
• 1 bout of norovirus :(
• 1 diabolical peptobismol looking yeast infection. worst one of my life. this is what happens when you have sex in a squat
• 1 unspecified respiratory illness. im still coughing stuff up over a week later :(
• a little skinny dipping
• longest menstrual period of my life (at 2 weeks currently)
• anyway i am medically GOING THRU IT
• 1 three hour house conflict resolution talk that went uhhhh, really poorly
• but have also had so so so much hot freaky tranny sex. and isn’t that what it’s all about

apr.13.26

7 days til i leave

woefully unprepared. schedule thrown off by the ant invasion in my house

meant to be out of the house at 9am. it is already 3pm

very much need help and wish i were more skilled in asking for it. i don’t really know what to ask for

still gotta do my taxes lol