ieve's Squall of Consciousness

Entry 1 - On Saviors

(February 16, 2025)

I woke up this morning with this classic sort of feeling and question within me - 'What am I supposed to do with my life?'

I have a pretty good job... I have a good dog and a stable living situation and enough money to do what I want and go on trips where I want to go. I can cook healthy food and drink good quality coffee. And so there's one voice inside of me that says *"Hey, things are actually pretty good, stop complaining and take advantage!"*

Yes, you are right, little voice, I often feel like I squander the gifts of time and health with vices and distractions. I absolutely should just take part in the world - isn't the purpose of life to be alive and enjoy the moments?*

But of course that's not the only voice. Unfortunately it's also not the loudest.

But who will work to quiet the mad chattering of the world? Who will weave the threads of fate back into a sustainable future, and stop all that we hold dear from unraveling?*

But then...

Who are you to deign to save the world? You barely have cogent strength to take care of yourself.*

And worse...

Does this world even deserve to be saved?*

Ugh.

- 🜌

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